What do you find more unbearable: watching a video of yourself, or listening to a recording of your voice? Why? dp
Despite my shame I burried whenever watching a video of my own, I think there’s nothing more shameful than caught myself lying. Most of the time it’s spontaneous and I didn’t have enough time to respond the way I should be responding. For example when my mother ask me whether I could do my exam today, then I would habitually said, “of course, it was a piece of cake”, or “Like a Boss”. These phrase just blurted from my mouth automatically whenever such question arises. Most of the time I could do the exam and results tell me that I’m good at my fields, but there are time when I couldn’t do it like I used to but I keep saying it was fine to my mother”. That are time, I wish I could have more time to respond between my mother question and my answer instead of saying what I used to said.
Lying often time was automatically done because of our previous habit of lying, when we habitually lied to people around us and to ourselves, these bad habit eventually become permanent and we lose control of it. I believe we could reverse such bad habit and instill more awareness in replying to people’s question and comment.
Anybody feeling the same as I do?
Journeyman 
We have already established many readymade answers for the most frequently asked questions.
Like if someone asks us, “How are you?” We always reply that we are fine irrespective of our condition.
I think that’s a lie that everyone has said.
Yes, exactly like that! I think it’s becoming a sort of chit-chat rather than a real concern about others condition. Thank you for sharing
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Yes, there are phrases of courtesy that we expect to say and to hear, but I don’t really have a lot of concern with those. No one wants an organ recital when they say “How are you?” 🙂 The lies that bother me are the ones that I use to cover up for a failure, a deficiency, a wrong attitude or behavior. As old as I am, you’d think I’d be past lying. Sigh.
Agreed as well, I think some lies do make life easier and prevent us from wasting our time talking to people who may not even care about us. Thank you for the thouhts.
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What bothers me is that I often lie to protect my feelings because I hate feeling exposed or vulnerable. Eventually it gets to a point where I can’t even try and open up to the people I’ve been talking to because all these negativities seem to come from nowhere and it seems like I’m either joking or being dramatic. It’s isolating, and you’d think after experiencing this multiple times I’d learn to be more open … But I haven’t yet.
It’s our ego working I think, we hate it when people could see through us and we are afraid they know something about us that is shameful, so we are being defensive. Thank you for sharing, from the way you write I guess you are an introvert?
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The “scripts” and the “role” we play out are a lot of times giving us goose bumps when we’re made aware of them. Some makes us laugh, though. The beauty of our humanity. Nonetheless, I don’t think I’d like to see a video of myself hahaha.
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