Verbal Ticks -Psychologycal Analysis: Why Good People Turned Bad

Is there a word or a phrase you use (or overuse) all the time, and are seemingly unable to get rid of? If not, what’s the one that drives you crazy when others use it?

Well, the word “fuck” comes to my mind because despite how hard I try to not saying it, I’ll end up saying it everytime my friends are mocking with me. I used to be a well behaved boy until high school, I didn’t swear, I’m polite to everyone even my closest friends. Then I got bullied because of being a nice boy, some students mock me because they know I will not fight back. And I didn’t.

Funny things I observed is that I’m becoming like them myself, I start swearing and try to look bad, perhaps it was a self defense mechanism for my fragile self esteem at the moment. Since I used many swearing word, I felt that people tend to be afraid of me as well. See the pattern here? It’s like a peer pressure to be cool and not get bullied. What a shame.

Now I swear quite a lot and i get used to it after some time, it has been 4-5 years since I left my good personality and try to be ‘one of the bad guys’ and I have to admit that people does like to bully nerds, defenseless peers. And i think that is the reason a good guy like me could be turned into an asshole, simply because I don’t want to get bullied again!

i’m not encouraging anyone to swear and trust me, once you get used to it, it’s very hard to get rid of it. Your brain will have such reflex to swear everytime a trigger comes, and yes, it does bring some trouble when you swear unappropriately in front of some people.



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Kevin Yulianto is a private trader and equity portfolio manager with over 4 years of experience. He was born in Jakarta at July 18th 1994, graduated with Bachelor of Medicine Degree from Atma Jaya Catholic University of Indonesia in 2015 and is expected to receive Master of Management Degree from Binus Business School in 2017. Currently he is pursuing his professional certification in the CFA and FRM program, in which he passed level 1 for both program in 2016. Kevin is an avid traveler and photographer, with a record of 32 countries visited in 2016. He is a freelance contributor at Getty Image and is running two website in his spare time, and
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4 Responses to Verbal Ticks -Psychologycal Analysis: Why Good People Turned Bad

  1. Pingback: Daily Prompt: Verbal Ticks | tnkerr-Writing Prompts and Practice

  2. raroto says:

    Hi! I’d like to share a video made entirely out of the Eff word. Check it out if you like! Have a great weekend ahead 🙂

  3. bkpyett says:

    Yes, this has become a very well used word. Fashions come and go, as I’m sure will happen with this word too.

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