Reflection: What For? Activity that Lead to Destruction

I want to share my experience in the last few months which leads to nothing but a waste of time. For the last months I’ve been obsessed with the “watch world”, since I bought Omega Seamaster 6 months ago, I’ve been studying complication, movement, and everything about how mechanical watch works. I spent lot of time, around 1-2 hours a day to fulfill my obsession by surfing the internet, I look for the models I like, and plan what i should buy next. The desire gets stronger as I studied further and appreciate the luxury of it. As if my Omega SMP is not enough for me, I got obsessed with high end watch such as JLC, Patek, IWC. These watch cost around $5000-12000, and the problem is I wanted it. I saw the world with “tunnel vision”, focusing on one thing and lost the big picture. Nobody woke me up from my daydream.

Until I reflect on myself yesterday about how all I do seems to lead to emptiness. I thought myself more competent than my peers, but i produced nothing more (well, perhaps some small things) compared to them. I read how successful people start their career from young age and grow in it. I want to be successful, I need someone to direct my life. Instead of thinking more about how I could improve my life, I waste a lot time daily to be obsessed with useless thing.

What I’m trying to share with you is that we are very often occupied with things that lead us nowhere, or perhaps lead us to destruction. It could be our interest and unproductive hobby (I have a hobby to watch every movie in my local theater, at first it is entertaining but it lose gradually over time. Aside from spending $15-20 every week for ticket, I also waste 6-8 hours every week). It maybe small things we habbitually do when we can’t answer ourself why we did it, or why we start doing it in the first place. I got so obsessed with one thing, and lost the reality. Life is more than pursuing material things, I think life should be lived to it’s fullest.

Yesterday I read a men travelling the world for 23 years, in his interview he said that to him everyday was an adventure. It struck directly to my mind, that is the kind of life I wanted, I want to feel alive instead of sitting in couch with iPad in my hands, I want to see the world’s beauty, experience the thrill, exploring the wild, and enjoying the gift of nature. I couldn’t estimate how much time I’ve wasted in my 19 years life only to do useless stiff that only brings a short term reward. From now on, I should plan more on my future, living the present, and appreciate the gift of life!

And I bet you have not-so-useful activity too in your life, and I’m trying to bring awareness of it, you could decide to still doing it if it brings joy to you, but at least you are aware of it. It is dangerous for us to get lost of the reality, or staying in our comfort zone for too long. It makes us afraid of taking action, and die because of boredom.

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About agent909

Kevin Yulianto is a private trader and equity portfolio manager with over 4 years of experience. He was born in Jakarta at July 18th 1994, graduated with Bachelor of Medicine Degree from Atma Jaya Catholic University of Indonesia in 2015 and is expected to receive Master of Management Degree from Binus Business School in 2017. Currently he is pursuing his professional certification in the CFA and FRM program, in which he passed level 1 for both program in 2016. Kevin is an avid traveler and photographer, with a record of 32 countries visited in 2016. He is a freelance contributor at Getty Image and is running two website in his spare time, journeyman.live and idxstockwatch.wordpress.com.
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